Go too far.

I don’t do well with settling. To me, settling is the same as failure. It drives me crazy to have to wait things out, to not chase the things you want, and do everything you can to get them…good enough is never enough, I want more than enough. I want to challenge life, challenge myself and push the boundaries. The only way I’ll ever learn how far I can go, is to risk going too far.

“It’s better to cross the line and suffer the consequences than to just sit and stare at the line for the rest of your life.”

Every past relationship I’ve ever had I pushed the line. In my mind it was better to risk ending the relationship than to settle into a relationship that just wasn’t right. I wanted one that would fulfill me, challenge me and push me to be better. I had big dreams for what I wanted from a relationship in my life and I was willing to risk going too far for it.

When I first met Marco, I knew he was special. He was confident, self assured and he knew exactly what he wanted out of life. He had big dreams too. So I pushed. And for the first time in my entire life, he pushed back. We actually pushed each other almost to the point of breaking up. He invited me for dinner to his house, and I went there with full intentions of breaking up with him. Apparently he had full intentions of making me dinner, and then also breaking up with me. (I mean I gotta give him credit for making me dinner to ease the pain first hey?!)

I walked into candles, and the amazing smell of dinner, which softened my determination to end things. When Marco tells the story, he said dinner was so much fun he decided to wait just a bit longer, see if things got better. When I tell it, its much the same. He made me dinner, we had the best conversation and we laughed so hard…I vividly remember the laughter, and the tears from laughing so hard. It was one of the best dates I had ever had.

From then on there was never a doubt in either of our minds that we had found our one. We continue to push each other to the point of long, VERY heated arguments discussions, and we are both better for it.  We’ve also had those “oh shit” moments where we realize we took on too much, where we went too far, and we’ve learned where our boundaries are. But we’ve also had those glorious moments of celebration, when we risked going too far and found out just how far we could actually go.

We refuse to settle in our life. We fully celebrate our successes, we take breaks to enjoy our life and to live it fully, but we also challenge each other to not be complacent. To never settle into our current situation and take it as the new norm. We have a hunger for our lives that leaves us constantly wondering “what’s next?” and I can’t WAIT to see what’s next for us :)

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